Well, I have had a stunner of a weekend. I feel full of positive, focused, creative energy.
Raw food power, an eclipse and a BIG decision - and Best of all: Feedback from a Happy Client!
Our experience of Leila Fanner is that of working with an extremely talented Artist and Graphic Designer.
When we gave Leila the brief for the upgrade of the company logo and branding, she immediately got the message
we hoped to convey , the mission and ethos of the company.
She came along to our premises, saw who we were and was able to work digitally from a distance with us thereafter.
Without Leila’s creativity and understanding of us as her client, we would have struggled to create something as
awesome as the logo that now speaks the message of our brand.
I often find myself looking at our logo and have to say that I am as proud as punch with the end result." Rose Mc Clement - Design Tabloid and Design Monarchy
That was added to this interesting weekend of facing some shadow stuff and a sprinkle of goodness in between. For some reason I spontaneously fasted for two mornings, just felt the need to drink copious amounts of water with lemon. I only felt really hungry around 2 in the afternoon. After that I ate delicious high raw foods, (mostly smoothies of fruit and spinach, green juices, seed crackers with avo etc) hence the feelings of SuperPowers regardless of dire Horoscope mentions of a hectic eclipse ; ) !
A little green aside: Yesterday I had the loveliest conversation with one girlfriend over the phone while she slurrped her green smoothie, (the previous non veggie eater, smoker, drinker carnivore of note!) and got a short little mail from another girlfriend at the same time:
Subject line: Jummm
"in the juicer - tomato, celery, spinach, red pepper
add to blender with... lemon juice, an avo and some almonds, salt
ooh la la
Feel like an angel"
I marveled at the fact that slowly but surely I am being surrounded by Good Green Food Goddesses!
The Shadow Emerges:
This weekend I painted like a painterly dervish, till I could no longer put off facing what I want to do with my Intuitive Transformation coaching work. My coaching friend had challenged me to FINALLY get down to it and put into concrete format some type of way forward (having spoken at length about this for two years!) and some method or modules.
I sat down to 'do it' and spent about 10 minutes sighing, yawning, reading and feeling wholly uninspired. All I could think of were the new images I want to paint, ideas for art related video on my blog/website, more marketing ideas, my style for the body of work I am producing for exhibition...
And it hit me like a very soft bear paw in the face: I must put coaching to bed for now.
I saw how much I have written already to date about it - the mood boards I have created, the presentations I have made, the talk I have walked and talked and I real 'eyesed' that it is just NOT FOR NOW. Coaching is very much a 'golden pear' for me. A term I use often lately - when I was a child my favourite story was about this quest that the character in the story had to reach for the golden pear.
I cannot remember the whole story, but I would have re-occurring dreams of reaching for a golden pear only to wake up and realise it was just a dream.
The symbolism runs deep for me - as this dream came to me over and over throughout my life - and I have started to understand what it means;
The 'golden pear' is all that glitters in this world. The seemingly easy way to riches or fame or ...name your obsession...and the reality is, that strive as I will to reach that big something that will change everything materially for me in this life - one day life will end like a dream does - and what will I actually have in my hands?
That was the same feeling I got with the big grand house...I saw without the 'faerie glamor' in my eyes. I saw the impulsive desire of my ego that craved a lifestyle 'image' that was realistically going to come at the price of peace of mind and heart. I saw clearly that I need to create - not grasp after. I need to root down where I am and enrich myself here where I am. It's not always easy - but I no longer have rose tinted glasses on and I see what I see and I know that so does everyone else. No matter how much of a gloss we may try to put on things we don't really like in our lives or about ourselves - we all know the truth deep down.
As far as the golden pear of coaching goes:
I cannot put my finger on why NOT, I am surrounded by beautiful women friends who all in their own way have encouraged and rooted for me to do this - yet all I know is that I have to stop rowing my 'art boat' with one oar. I need to get INTO what I am aiming for in art and do it with wholehearted commitment.
I saw clearly that if I died now, I would not regret the missed opportunity of coaching - but the missed opportunity for giving my art career the best shot.
My whole demeanor has been : well I am an artist - BUT I wont make money this way. So I found something else I was passionate about ( there are many things!) hoping to do more than one and strike it lucky.
Well, I cannot. It doesn't serve my art journey to have my focus so divided.
It is a huge deal for me to put this down and walk away - so I am saying 'for now' because obviously we have no idea what the future holds. But for now I must do all the stuff I tell others to do for their careers and their blogs and their sites and their marketing and use of mental energy and Law of attraction etc and DO IT for my art.
Just read last night that the eclipse holds BIG decision making energy and the 'end' of something....a total eclipse of the art....in my case.
ONWARDS: I bought new art stuff yesterday and am about to make myself a huge green smoothie now and work with a happy decisive heart. xxx