Little Note of Love
Every now and then, just when you really, truly need it, Life gives you a little thumbs up. Upon instant reflection, I'm pretty sure it doesn't just happen every now and then, but daily. I probably lack the awareness and appreciative state of mind to notice those times. But I'm working on it.
I received this little note two days ago, as I sat contemplating the sorry state of my affairs. It all seemed to be frustrating me and exhausting me. That sounds worse than it is...trust me. Now that two whole days have passed my affairs all look decidedly more rosey hued. I was just in one of those funks, where nothing is fast enough, polished enough, good enough... and then I got the Little Note. : )
How do these little people know exactly what it is that you need to hear? To be perfectly honest, whether or not I was being a good mom was so far from my mind I was probably not being a very good mom AT ALL right then. But Jude's Little Note made me shut down my computer, go and give him a HUGE hug and suggest we do something together. We decided to go walkingwith the dogs, to find 'treasures'. As we walked, I felt the muscles between my shoulder blades relax, I took deeper breaths, my eyes adjusted to looking at the horizons. I felt the expansiveness of the outside stretch me inside, as if I had just discovered horizons within me. Endless space. I found myself whispering 'thank you, thank you' to the earth, the sky, the birds, the trees.
Later that evening, my usual sitting room boogey : )... I danced and danced till all that sad stuff was sweated out and shaken away. It felt good!.
Lesson learnt: When trapped in frustrating feelings of failure - APPRECIATE. Something. Anything. Just get out of your own head and FIND something to love, to be grateful for or about. It is best to do this in nature. WE DO NOT GET ENOUGH NATURE TIME. It is healing in a subtle, yet profound way that cannot be explained, but needs to be experienced. Daily. Amen.
P.S. and dancing is always good : )