I've posted a letter here that I sent today to a lovely woman, who is holding my virtual hand as I face my various creative hills and mountains.
I decided to post a letter as this is all the writing I am presently capable of producing... going through a metamorphosis of strange and deep and wide proportions.
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"Thanks sweet woman for your good words. I just read an article in my inbox to help us both...Me much more so than you at the moment:
All about the stuff that comes up just before a Big Leap. Transition.
I feel a lot more comforted in the recollection that I have indeed been here before and have come through miraculously full of new inspiration and having moved ahead in my vision and ability to produce. So, I wont fight it.
Or get so down that I can't get up again : )
I agree with you that life does send you opportunities for gaining practical knowledge of that which you are intent on being a master of, teaching or helping others with.
My biggest issue (i think) right now is trying to be creative while also wanting the big money maker project. I have a couple of projects all busy brewing and keep hopping around as I think one or the other has more immediate money making potential. Such a pity. So the finances are driving me instead of the excitement and deep heartfelt intention - the result is a dead loss in all the projects. I know from previous experience that this is a killer to creativity.
It's the hardest test to stay positively productive and on track when money is not flowing. As my husband is the money earner and I sell artwork maybe once a month ( ! ) I have been focusing on making my attitude to art more businesslike. It has moved me forward in a big way, I have a website, an online shop and artwork in two galleries... but I am still tempted to start raw food transformation/transition coaching, I still want to write my book, and I want to create weekend Raw Retreat Experiences and I want to fatten my blog with artist interviews and lots of interactive fun stuff for creative inspiration. is this all too much??
This is where I wish I could afford Karen's 1:1 coaching sessions...!!
I am going to do what you suggested (treating myself like the client) and hopefully get some answers : )"
Well, this has been an exercise in patience. i am so accustomed to working on very large formats, in large loose ways!
Focusing on these tiny canvases has been a study in focus, Zen like stillness and discipline. Enjoying the moment and the minutae of details and more details. I can only imagine what these would look like if I had the patience to work on them for longer...
It was my first ever attempt to paint reflective objects. the spoons were the first of this series. Now I'm all excited about a whole lot of other possibilities...
Of course my decorator brain has gone into ecstatic over-drive imagining objects on a velvet black and a deep oriental red etc etc....
I have some gorgeous feathers lined up as well. I want to mix a feather into a line of leaves...
Proteas are beckoning me to capture their precise and perfect over-lapping petals and furry leaves, intense colour and thick gnarly stems. Can't wait!
This was the second painting... I realized just as I was ready to photograph, that the symmetry is completely off on this plate...but decided "what the heck!"
I have always had a problem with hyper realism (probably because I am simply incapable of such intense focus and discipline for achieving it!) So anyway, I am calling these child-like romantic realism ; )
As I said to a friend, I am improving all the time... who knows what the next lot will look like.